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Day One, Week One: Attachment & Weakness

A few weeks ago I threatened to start Rodney Yee’s 8-week Home Yoga Practice program from his book, Moving Towards Balance: 8-Weeks of Yoga with Rodney Yee and blog about my experience.  Today, I’m making good on my threat.  It’s Day One of Week One.

Today’s practice involved practicing multiple versions of some standing poses.  Already, I’m kind of frustrated.  After twenty-years of practice, I like doing these poses the way I like doing these poses.  So, today, I met the beast of attachment head on and I did the poses the way Rodney wanted me to.  I’m still going to keep doing the poses my way, but once I got over my attachment issues, I did find that doing the poses in the variety of ways that the practice suggested, I was able to find different sensation in the poses.  It was really an invitation to feel the poses in a variety of different ways and this brought me into deeper awareness of sensation in my body and the alignment and use of my skeletal system.

I also discovered that I am weak.  Seriously W-E-A-K.  For each of the asana variations, we were instructed to hold the pose for 30-seconds.  I confidently came into Warrior II only to find that my whole body wanted to give in at around five seconds.  I have been holding poses for a mindful period of time, but only some poses that are a part of my regular Vajra Yoga practice.  Being forced to hold other poses took me out of my strength-zone and I was surprised to find out how weak I felt when holding poses.  In all fairness, I have been either pregnant or nursing a baby for the past 19-months and that is bound to exhaust a person and change strength and endurance in some ways and enhance it in others.

Finally, I should divulge that I did this practice in the center of my home’s family room with a sick five-year old sitting on the couch watching Pokemon videos and playing fruit ninja on my iPhone and my 9-month old dumping blocks out of a canvas bag near my head.  While in downward facing dog, my 9-month old crawled under me and pinched my boob.  Yes, you read this correctly—-she pinched my boob!  But, I have to say that I felt a whole lot more open, centered and, if not really relaxed, more prepared to continue with the day than I did before practice.  I mention this because so many adults feel that they can’t mke time for yoga because they keep waiting for the perfect moment, the perfect place or the time when they can have some peace and quiet.  Yes, ideally you can make your practice about taking some time for yourself, but if you can’t, then just push aside the crumbs and the toys—–roll out the mat over the chaos and make it happen.

Please feel free to join me in my 8-week program with Rodney Yee.  You can share your own experience by leaving comments on this blog.  It’s OK if you start on a different day or we get out of sync.  This is going to be fun!

Posted by Sharon Fennimore Rudyk, the fearless leader of Team Matrika.  Are you in Pittsburgh, PA?  Join us for a great class at Yoga Matrika in Squirrel Hill.

Football, Swimsuits and the Yoga of Feminism

As I teach two prenatal yoga classes every week, I have the honor and joy of watching incredibly strong women embody the true spirit of Warrior poses.  I can actually see the energy rising up through the soles of their feet and into their core to support the amazing act of creation they carry within them.  There is a courage, a dignity and strength of force there that is palpable in the room.  It is, for me, an experience and one that brings me, each class, into a new appreciation for the beauty and strength that is woman. The energy of these movements is the embodiment of grace.  Grace representing the fact that each one of these women has opened their hearts to the potential for immense joy and immeasurable loss and grief.  No words are required.  Through movement and intention, the expression of strength and grace is clear and concise.

Last weekend, I was able to catch the very end of the playoff game between the Steelers and the Ravens.  While I can’t say that I am a fan of football in general, there is something so very beautiful about watching the Steelers right now.  The coordination combined with strength and expression of sheer will as well as the skill combined with brutality and violence is something to behold.  Not only are these men amazing athletes, but they have the courage to take a flying leap into a pile of men and to throw their bodies with incredible force and at high speeds into one another.  As anyone who knows me can appreciate, if a ball (or anything else for that matter) is coming my way, my only instinct is to duck and cover.  Therefore, I have this incredible awe and appreciation for what is being required of these men in this game.

After the game, we were flipping through channels and found the Miss America pagent.  It was already the swimsuit competition and about 40-women in identical black bikinis and heals were walking accross the stage in various choreographed formations.  Each one beautiful, young, in great shape, smiling and basically, half naked on national television.  I don’t have a problem with naked and these women were easy on the eyes to say the least. But, let’s be honest here– a bikini is really underpants and bra made for swimming and, well, you can’t swim in heels and I didn’t see a pool anywhere nearby.  Immediately, I thought of the national news stories of the past year that involved mothers being asked to leave airplanes and coffee shops because they were breastfeeding.  These mothers were offending those around them by, horror of horrors, exposing some of their breast!  The NERVE!  Even more GROSS—they were using this breast to, yuck,  feed their baby.  Did I mention, in PUBLIC?  And yet, here before my eyes were lots of breasts and bellies and butts on display all balancing on top of high heels for maximum effect.

And what was the effect?  I felt that the effect was that these intelligent, athletic and beautiful women were weakened.  After the bikini competition, they all ran off frantically to get on their ballgowns and then they raced around preparing for the talent competition and then they were given the time to answer one significant political or ethical question with a maximum of one sentence.  The whole experience gave the image of the ideal American woman as one who is perfect in every way, but frantic and weak as they rush mindlessly around trying to look good and irish dance and talk about globalism all while trying to balance on the tip of a heel on national tv in their underwear.  I felt none of the awe that I do in a room full of women doing prenatal yoga or the immense respect for the football players.

The more that I considered the issue, I continued to return to the idea of mindfulness.  The weakness of the Miss America contestants really had nothing to do with their dress or the different aspects of the competition, it was due to the frantic nature of the timing.  It wasn’t just whether or not they could meet the tasks required, it was about how fast they could meet each task.  The pregnant women are focused, the football players are focused, but the contestants were both naked and engaged in a process that took away their ability to be mindful.  It made them seem silly and took away from the actual value of their talents and accomplishments.  It made the winner seem arbitrary and, most likely, set all of the contestants up for some level of trauma.  How long must it take to process that experience when they didn’t even have a chance to experience it?

My conclusion is that there is great strength in mindfulness.  My analysis has shown me clearly that frantic behavior weakens even the strongest, most talented and intelligent.  The way that our culture supports the idea that multi-tasking is a virtue leads us to weakness and creates a kind of deep seated stress and trauma.  Making a commitment in the moment, centering through the intention of that commitment and then following through with grace is the only path to the result that we honestly desire.  Yoga and meditation provide us with the means for learning and practicing these skills in a safe environment.  No matter how frantic our rush to class was, how crazy our day, how stressed we feel, once we put out the mat and start to breathe we re-gain our strength.  We are no longer the young woman in her underwear and heels on tv trying to sing an opera while mentally preparing to answer a question about world peace.

Posted by Sharon Rudyk.  https://www.yogamatrika.com/ and http://www.matrikaprenatal.com

The McRib is Back

Nestled in between some of the most idiotic political advertisements I have ever seen was a clean and simple advertising campaign from the Mc family of restaurants announcing the “great news” that the McRib was back.  Seriously?  Did anyone miss the McRib?  Obviously, someone did.

For me, the idiotic campaigns of both politicians and this questionably edible treat are both a clear sign that it is time for everyone to do more yoga.  Doing yoga provides us with a clear connection to our deepest intelligence and relieves us of fear and anxiety about the future.  Over time, grounding ourselves in the present moment, with a deep connection to what is most true for ourselves and to our universal nature through breath and mindful movement prevents us from attachment to the forms of suffering that are implicated in these advertisements.

These advertisements indicate to me that these politicians and corporations are appealing to an un-centered population, one that is filled with desires, angers and fears that they can not even name.  Or, perhaps, even more dangerous, they have placed a false name on these deep emotions.  If you can point the finger at a “baby-killer” it releases you from being forced to see the “baby-killer” in yourself.  Of course, I do not mean this literally, but figuratively, placing blame of any kind on someone else or something else is a form of denial of the ways that each and every one of us suffer at the hands of our own desires, judgments and violence. 

Yoga does not have to mean putting on a pair of stretch pants and sitting on a plastic mat in some peaceful room.  It’s a great place to start, but maybe your starting point needs to be somewhere different.   Patanjali’s yoga sutras define yoga as the calming of the mental movements of the mind (1.2 yogas citta-vrtti-nirodhah).  No special clothing or props are mentioned.  What do you do that calms the mental movements of your mind?  Is it your work, spending time with your children, your volunteer work, through creativity, playing music, swimming/running/hiking, your prayer, your community work?  Whatever it is that brings you to a place that is in this moment is your yoga.  You probably already do a lot of yoga and just don’t know it!

Yoga brings you in touch with the present moment.  This moment is real.  Fear, blame, anxiety, desire and everything else implied by these advertising campaigns are all about some different moment—-either a moment from the past that you can’t get back or a moment in the future that is just conjecture.  The more you can be present in the reality of this very moment, the less you are at the mercy of campaigns that appeal to the worst, most suffering and fearful place in yourself.

If yoga isn’t for you, I still have some advice that may be of great import now that the McRib is back: Stay away from processed meat in the shape of bones.  In the words of Hans and Frans, listen to me now and hear me later, there just has to be something better to eat.  Really.

This entry was written by Sharon Rudyk, Owner and Director of Yoga Matrika in Squirrel Hill, Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania.  www.yogamatrika.com

Yoga & Pittsburgh Rain

I can’t help but notice that, when it rains, less people come to yoga classes.  There’s something about the damp, grey and chilly weather that re-directs intentions and leads people to their home destination rather than to the studio or their mat.  Rather than write this to make all of you who have been skipping your yoga classes in Pittsburgh for the past couple of rainy days feel guilty, I am writing this because it has inspired me to think about yoga practice as a way of grounding and coming home that provides the same comfort as skipping school and cuddling with your cat instead.

When we feel this need to “go home,”  there are ways to shift our practice so that we create an embrace of asana and breath that warms the heart-mind and body.  First, honor your mat.  Make a ritual of your practice and have placing your mat on the earth as one of the elements of that ritual.  Your mat becomes the sacred place where you can explore the embrace of spirit and mindfulness.  When you take your seat and you want to set a cozy tone for your practice, make it a soft seat.  You can do this by placing a cushion under your sitting bones and blankets under your ankles and knees.  If you are in a cooler space, drape a shawl or light blanket over your shoulders. 

Start your practice with a heart warming chant of the seed syllable “Hung.”  First, watch your breath and then, as you deepen the breath, sing “Hung” using your diaphragm muscles and slowly allowing the vibration to ease tension in your heart.  You can chant this syllable for as long as you like, just repeating it over and over again.  Notice where you feel the sound vibrations and give yourself a few minutes after you are done to feel the differences in your body and the quality of your thoughts and breath.

Finally, give yourself permission to stretch and open to movement in your practice in a more organic way.  Not sure where to start, get on your hands and knees and so a few cat/cow and see where the spirit moves you.  Perhaps, you will want to move into some seated stretches or maybe a series of heart opening back bends?  Maybe you will come into downward facing dog and move through a series of lunges and warrior poses.  Maybe you will realise that what you really need is to take your legs up the wall and daydream!  Whatever it is, keep the cozy intentions of your practice and make yourself feel at home.

Cheer up Pittsburgh! 

Posted by Sharon Rudyk
Owner and Director of Yoga Matrika
https://www.yogamatrika.com/